I think my exhibition should be something like, ‘What is is like to be 22’ - or something along those lines, still working it out.
I have to tell myself this everyday. I have really learnt so much already and I am going to keep learning. I am so excited for this year, think I am growing and I got into AWARD school which is so very exciting. A new chapter, new people new things to learn. But I have three weeks until that begins gah! I want to do something with these three weeks. Just recently I did a painting for a friend of mine and I really loved doing it and everyone seemed to react really well to it. I also need something to distract me from all this boy stuff! So I want to try and do as many paintings as I can and put together a little exhibit xxx
I had a jungle party last weekend for my birthday and it was one of the best things I have done in a while, I never felt that loved before. It just made me realise how many truly special people there are in my life <3 Here are some pics xx
A few thoughts, well many thoughts. I got the most beautiful message back from my one and only person I have loved and it was so nice. Man life is truly hard sometimes, it is such a journey. I am finding it so so hard to just accept things and keep moving on to the future, I am finding it so hard to differentiate between the things that are worth holding onto and the things I am just meant to let go. I really believe we choose our own lives and it’s scary you know. You choose things with the hope of finding something better, you let go of things with faith and some sense of hope that there is more. I am trusting fate and destiny and all those things because really I do believe. I do believe in soul mates and I do believe in true love. My biggest problem is fear of the future, and as I type I listen to the song by the Panics where the lyrics say, ‘Don’t fight it if you don’t know what it is.’
I feel like I am only 22 and yet I have really had the most crazy and amazing experiences and met so many people. I take solace in coming to the conclusion that everyone is lost really, everyone is trying to figure themselves out and maybe we will all never really know. Maybe it’s that that keeps us all living with the hope that there’s more out there, there are more amazing feeling to be felt, more adventures. We only get one life and I want to allow myself happiness. I want to be in every moment for what it is. I am still figuring myself out, what all this is and maybe I will never really know but I want to be ok with that.
Speaking to another girl who is beautiful and amazing and really has a lot going for her, but feels so lost in her life just shows me that we are all the same, we all need each other at the end of the day. I feel like we all need to love each other a bit more hence the image I decided to put with this quote. More love, less worry always.
I have hope that one day when it’s right I will just know until then just trying to enjoy the little things. xxx